10 March 2014

A rare glimpse into my own suffering....

Today would have been my mom's birthday. Even nearly 12 years after, it's still difficult for me (perhaps losing mom at age 16 really messes things up).....I don't normally write about personal things on my blog, but I guess I'll make an exception today...

In your charity if you could offer prayers for her and myself it'd be lovely...

They often say that you can tell how a guy will treat a girl, by how he treats his mother. They also say that guys look for girls that are like their mothers. I don't know how much the latter is true, but the former, most definitely is so.

I must say during HS when I was going through this absolute misery, there was really one person that helped me (albeit, only in the way that I let her do so) (I tuned everyone out...I deal with everything in isolation, and only let particular people in my bubble)...

This person didn't need to use words, her presence was simply enough, though sometimes...as a matter of fact, often, when I walked with her, I said nothing, I just let my heart speak through us walking....words really couldn't express the suffering and pain that I was going through, so I didn't use them. But anytime I was in her presence, I was at peace...and although things were absolutely miserable, for a short time, things were actually somewhat bearable.

Lent is a time to be more perfect, a time to come closer to Him, a time to realize that we've screwed up, repent, and change our lives for the better.

I tend to think reconciling with a friend that you haven't talked to you for 12 years is on the list of a good idea. (or absolutely crazy).

Anyways, I'm breaking into tears writing this, so I'm going to stop, pray for me, please.


  1. We'll pray now for your intentions.

  2. I'll pray for you and your mom. I lost my father when I was 13. Most people just don't have any idea how hard the death of a parent is for a kid.

  3. ed, thank you!

    dymphna, indeed, it's really un explainable...and difficult, prayers


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