28 December 2012

I'm still here

...behind on posts...lack of sleep...sometime before the new year I'll return I promise :)

06 December 2012

Thought of the Day

The soul that has been carved with much pain has the greater capacity to be filled with much joy...

05 December 2012

What I learned Weds...Vol. 1

As to avoid being kicked in the shin (inside joke)....I've decided to participate in this little venture as well. My friend Emmy is hosting this little thing.

1) I must say it is quite difficult to do certain things when there's anger an animosity towards that particular thing. In talking with a dear friend of mine Monday night, I finally relinquished control that I had been exerting. I allowed myself to say to her face that I'm happy for a situation that I'm not happy with. (That probably makes no sense). In this light it's been easier to start getting back into habits of praying Liturgy of the Hours. (One should remind me to make laminated cards of the Propers in Latin) and doing various things that were leading to my own personal growth in holiness. I'm still a work in progress.

2) God's sense of humor is a bit much at times. Some people say I try to avoid them on purpose, this is probably true. But I ran into 3 different people I didn't want to see over my California vacation time. I guess I should pray for them, it's a bit difficult understanding the circumstances which is something that I would never reveal on this blog. Being an introverted sponge is very difficult sometimes ;).

3) The general rule of interpretation is literal, unless you're joking with me. So thus if you tell me that you're coming to visit me, you probably should ;)....I don't like being lied to, and I've discovered how much it really cheeses me off when someone does. (Emergency circumstances exempted). I'd rather know the truth and deal with consequences that way, than be lied to and take something deeply personal. So thus don't be surprised when I don't take someone for their word until they are in my presence.

But apparently, there's a lot more to learn in the day...Pax Vobis

01 December 2012

Thought of the day

If anyone says Happy Holidays to me, I'll ask, which one? I hate ambiguity

1st Sunday of Advent (EF)....Catechism Reflection I

EF: Introit: Ps 25 (24), 1-3; Epistle: Rom 13, 11-14; Gradual: Ps 25(24), 3-4; Gospel: Lk 14, 26-33; Offertory: Ps 25 (24), 1-3; Communion: Ps 85(84), 13, 1-3

OF: Introit: Ps 25 (24), 1-3; 1st Reading Jer 33, 14-16; Gradual: Ps 25(24), 3-4; Epistle: 1 Tess 3, 12-4, 2; Gospel: Lk 21, 25-28. 34-36; Offertory: Ps 25 (24), 1-3; Communion: Ps 85(84), 13, 1-3

Tis the First Sunday of Advent, and unfortunately in many of your parishes the beautiful Scripture propers (The propers are the same for the Novus Ordo (OF and EF this Sunday) (Introit, Gradual, Offertory, Communion) will be hijacked for hymns that center around us and have absolutely nothing to do with what Holy Mother Church is trying to teach us on this particular Sunday. I'm going to focus on 2 passages this week...they're quoted in the Catechism.

"If any one comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple." (Lk 14, 26)

Now perhaps at 1st glance at this verse one might be tempted to say how can someone hate their own father, mother, wife, children, and brothers and sisters? They are our family, we're supposed to love them....Of course this probably excludes those moments where our family makes often questionable (to put it politely) decisions.

The CCC points out rather nicely what this passage is supposed to mean:

"Christ is the center of all Christian life. The bond with him takes precedence over all other bonds, familial or social." (CCC 1618)

The point is that our lives should be centered around Christ. All that we do, all who we are should be centered around Him, and Him alone, to do otherwise is to place ourselves in the temptation of false gods, and the 1st commandment "Thou shalt not have any gods before me."

EVERYTHING comes after our relationship with the Holy Trinity....What kinds of things do you place above God? I'm sure that all of us have this struggle.

"So, therefore, whoever of you does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple." (Lk 14, 33)

In light of the 1st explanation earlier, it's not meant that one must not have any worldly possessions at all, though some are called to that exact thing ala the Franciscans or other mendicant orders.

"Jesus enjoins his disciples to prefer him to everything and everyone, and bids "renounce all [they have" for his sake and for that of the Gospel." (CCC 2544)

We have culture of materialism, that often needs the latest gadget or the latest device. I too most certainly fall into this trap. Many are excited about the new Ipod, or the Samsung Galaxy, which of course aren't in of themselves evil and can definitely be used to bring souls closer to Christ and His Church.

The question to ask is this: Do these material possessions become the point of our lives? Do they take us away from God or do they bring us closer to Him?

We must detach ourselves from worldly things as to prepare ourselves for the coming of Christ. Being close to Him through the Sacraments in particular Confession and the Holy Eucharist...this way, we can pray with joy and devotion:

"To You O Lord I lift up my soul. O my God in You I trust." Amen!

30 November 2012

Thought of the day

We've been using politics to solve a problem that is deeper than politics, there in lies the problem.

29 November 2012

Thought of the day

It's still not Christmas yet...don't we have Advent?

The Project for the Year of Faith

By a whopping 2 votes you the people have voted for weekly Scripture reflections with references to the catechism. Thank you for your votes....This project shall begin on the 1st Sunday of Advent.

I will likely be taking Scripture references from the Mass propers (as it will be easier to write a reflection with respect to a given theme :).

I look forward to doing this project as well as doing my part in the new evangelization....

28 November 2012

2 hours to vote on my poll

To determine the year of Faith project that will start on the First Sunday of Advent, if there is a tie....well, we'll figure it out later...vote, vote vote :D

Thought of the day

It becomes harder and harder to avoid people that one purposely tries to avoid

27 November 2012

7/2 Timeout Tuesday: The sad state of our culture edition

h/t to AOA for hosting once again....

1) I've often heard it said that one can tell much about culture through what it promotes...1st things first....What does it tell us of our culture when people get excited for "Teen Mom 2"...Teenagers don't need TV shows, they need to keep their legs closed and stay in class and avoid liberal indoctrination....I won't be wasting time watching this...There's enough things to pollute my brain with....Of course I remember when they actually played music on MTV....now they should just name it liberal indoctrination TV. That, or hedonism TV, either one works...

2) In a world where the economy's not great, people struggling to find work, the corruption of the government, and they STILL put back in power BHO....That's not just sad, that's absolutely pathetic. It's no wonder we're slipping in education, we can't even do basic arithmetic that involves the reduction of 16 Trillion dollars. Screw all the effects of what's going to happen as a result...Incompetence just rules the day....I have no faith in people....

3) Oh yeah, the USCCB annual meeting was a few weeks ago....almost forgot....There were some good comments by Cardinal Dolan on the need to go to Confession, but as usual, as with every good thing that comes from them, things get undermined indirectly....problems with extroverts ;)...

7/2) I've started a new blog dedicated to my work in my fields called order points to Truth....I hope to be able to give explanations on various phenomena....

25 November 2012

Weekly intentions 2

For this week the 7 things in your charity I'd like you to keep in your prayers.

1) For a speedy recovery of my former chemistry teacher from his surgery.
2) For the health and safety for Christians in the Middle East...especially for those falsely accused of crimes.
3) For an increase in devotion to the Liturgy of the Hours by the Faithful
4) For the release of the souls in purgatory
5) For the health and safety of Pope Benedict XVI
6) For the rubrics to be followed out of love for the Church and her teachings. For the faithfulness to follow the rubrics, even when they become painful for the human body to do. In particular for the act of genuflecting.
7) For the reconciliation of enemies and for the acknowledgement of Absolute Truth in society.

19 November 2012

Thought of the Day

It is nice when prayers are answered. The parish that I was confirmed at no longer pours the Precious Blood of Christ after the consecration :)...Thanks be to God! Archbishop Gomez is having an effect and it's visible...Words don't begin to describe my joy.

18 November 2012

New weekly feature----Weekly Intentions

Yes, I'm Catholic, of course I used to write a whole bunch on the Faith, alas that will be coming back at the beginning of Advent...vote in the poll if you haven't :)

I'm doing a weekly intentions feature, I'll list some of my intentions (for the week...i'll list 7), and by commenting, e-mailing or tweeting me, I will pray for your intentions as well :)...Prayer is one of the most powerful weapons we have in this fight against evil...let's use it.

My intentions for week ...

1) For the conversion of sinners back to the Faith
2) For the prosperous marriage of my friends Daniel and Vangie
3) For an increase in fidelity to the rubrics of Holy Mother Church
4) For His Divine Will to be accomplished.
5) For an increase in vocations...to all states of life
6) For the repose of the souls of all those forgotten.
7) For unification between the Russian Orthodox and Roman Churches.

Tell me your intentions, and I will remember them in prayer, and during the Liturgy of the Hours, Mass, etc.

15 November 2012

Thought of the day

I'd take the Bishops' slightly more seriously if organizations weren't being funded with CCHD money...

12 November 2012

Thought of the day

The road to hell is paved with good intentions...Evil is a warping of something that can be used for a good. And there's a reason that evil is portrayed as something attractive.

11 November 2012

Thought of the day (In Russian)

Я работаю проблему полностью.Решения продемонстрировали все этапы

09 November 2012

Thought of the day

It is the simple things that are always taken for granted because they're engraved into our memories on autopilot.

Year of Faith Poll

My dear 9 readers of this so called blog...I have a poll for you to do...that will be located in the side bar. I have 3 projects for the Year of Faith, I'm considering starting during Advent....please vote. :D...this poll shall close on 11/28/12 at 11:59 pm...


07 November 2012

Thought of the day

It's hard not being able to express certain things. I guess it gets easier ove rtime. But perhaps not so much. Pax Vobis

06 November 2012

Post Election thoughts!

Fortunately, my thoughts are not dependent on who actually wins the election, as that's completely irrelevant to what my thoughts are....

  • Insanity is doing the same thing over again, and expecting different results. The GOP is insane! They didn't learn that running a moderate vs a liberal, the liberal will ALWAYS win. Why is this? The answer is simple, liberals are themselves, moderates have to pretend to be someone they're not. Mittens had to pander to get votes (aka pretending to be pro-life) , Obama had a secure base. Those that saw right through both clowns (aka myself) were not going to be played fools and vote for one in spite of the other. Principles were going to be held to regardless. To translate, Mittens losing is entirely his fault, and no one else's but his. 
  • People like free things....the culture of entitlement rules the day....in spite of whatever consequences there of. 
  • As I've stated before on this blog, the argument for Religious Freedom was never going to fly. Why is this? Again, the vast majority of people don't work for a religious employer, and the vast majority of people are INDIFFERENT to religion in general. What should have been argued was WHY abortion, contraception are evils, instead of trying to get the gov't to leave us alone. If people have no clue WHY something is wrong, they're not going to care. We decided to try and appease the culture of indifference rather than fight it. 
  • A lie becomes a truth, if you believe it long enough. The Obama campaign kept hammering home that Mittens was going to do things that he wasn't going to do. (Aka: ban birth control, take away abortion so called rights, etc). Unfortunately, a slight majority believe in this entitlement culture as I mentioned previously. People are manipulated by the media....Mittens should have never ran based upon his actual record. Sorry!
  • America is a man-made institution, it's going to fall sooner rather than later. Only the Church that God founded will survive...Period!
  • Penance, penance, penance! Let us all start by making acts of reparation for the sins of America, all of us!
  • I will say, that yes, I have thought about moving out of the country....not to avoid punishment...but to pursue higher advances. Good thing I'm fluent in Russian :)....Something tells me I'm going to need it. 
  • May God have mercy on all of us, May He have mercy on all of us, myself being a chief sinner. (No, I didn't vote for Obama)
  • Apparently arithmetic is something America needs a re-education in. 16 TRILLION can't be decreased by increasing spending. 
  • Evil is the warping of a good intention. People don't see evil because everything is wrapped around a good intention....Good intentions have bad consequences, the road to hell is paved with good intentions....;)
  • However, worry not, the world has plenty of time before ending....This is only the beginning. 
  • Dear friends at the USCCB, withdraw your money now, stop taking money from the gov't, enough with the political correctness, enough with the tax exemptions, moral cooperation with evil can't be accepted....appeasement with the gov't isn't going to work....I hope you've learned your lesson!...
  • My dear Catholics, Orthodox and Protestants, our Hope is in Jesus and not in man! Don't lose sight of this....

7/2 Timeout Tuesday...the non-election version

Thanks to AOA for being our host once again....

1) I must say, last week in Confession, somethings were placed into perspective for me. Our Lord was spat upon, mocked, abused at the first Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. Yet St John and Our Blessed Mother did not leave the Cross, nor have their faith shaken. Just something to think about if you're stuck in a parish with ridiculous amounts of Liturgical Abuses....definitely brought some humility to a person that needed it.

2) I'm very excited for 2 of my good friends who will be getting married in a couple of weeks. I've known them for a long time, and look forward to giving the best man address....I guess I should avoid all sarcastic remarks and actually say something nice about them. But that would totally be not keeping in tune with my character.

3) One of the best compliments I have received lately was about me doing Calculus. Apparently, I was able to do a series problem on command. Proof that even the craziest mathematician has his moments of awesomeness.

7/2) It is extremely difficult being fluent in math and physics in 2 languages. Really it is, I think in Russian, and teach in English, it's rather difficult at times. It makes me very appreciative of Mrs. M for assisting me in English....I know how she feels now, now that I have that knowledge :). God Bless Mrs. M :D

21 October 2012

Thought of the day

Being attacked by monkeys is a good thing, especially if your monkeys are as adorable as these ones :)...*nota bene: these are my niece and nephews)

19 October 2012

Thought of the day

If the election were based on the popular vote, than a vote for anyone other than Romney is a vote for Obama. However, since it is not a direct election of the president by the people of the United States, a vote for candidate x is a vote for candidate x.

18 October 2012

16 October 2012

7/2 Timeout-Tuesday: the 3 cubed birthday edition

Thanks to AOA for being our gracious host....

1) Today just happens to be the 27th birthday (yes, 3 cubed for you non math majors :p) of the author of this blog. Which means I'm only 3 years from turning 30....Where in the world has time gone? It seems like yesterday I was much smaller than this, and had a ton of energy to stay up all night.

2) I must confess, there is a certain person I want to spend my birthday with. It's not happening. I'm rather angry about it....It's not a good thing for me to be mad on my birthday.

3) This is the one day in the calendar that it is all about meeeeeeeee. Therefore my wish is everyone's command. I thus command that all of thee comment and say wonderful things....:D

7/2) Well, as far as treats for myself, I'm not sure what I'm going to get myself, but I'll get myself something special...:)

15 October 2012

09 October 2012

7/2 Timeout Tuesday...the 1 week before my birthday edition

Thanks to our gracious late night host AOA

1) It's officially 1 week before my birthday, which means I guess, I should start listing what I want for my birthday....Well, I'm just going to come out and say it, the one thing I actually want for my birthday isn't going to happen any time soon, nor probably ever. It would be an absolute surprise....

2) I've still yet to decide what I'm doing for my birthday....It will probably be something small without all the attention that normally comes....

3) In your charity I would appreciate more prayers for a situation. What will come of it is up to God and his providence.

7/2) The quickest way to get to my heart...is through a few of my favourite things...that, and actually being within reach.....

03 October 2012

Thought of the day

It's kind of funny, how you can be completely angry at a person, and that person just smiles at you and the smile melts any anger you might have towards that person....either that.....

02 October 2012

7/2 Time out Tuesday....the Angel version

h/t to AOA for being our host of course.

1) Today is the feast day of the Guardian Angels. Just so we're clear, no, we don't turn into angels when we die. It's probably a good thing, considering Angels can't offer the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, or even have the possibility of being redeemed, they're a bit jealous of us...(if that can properly be ascribed to angels). Angels serve as God's messengers. We each have a guardian angel (no, you should NOT name your guardian angel...read my friend Fr. Cory's post for more details)...I must say, my guardian angel has been working overtime...

2) Just so we're clear also, the ANAHIEM Angels, are NOT in LOS ANGELES!....regardless of how stupid their name might be...(Sorry, I refuse to call them the Los Angeles Angels of Anahiem) ...I just don't roll like that...Of course I am a Seattle Mariner fan...all loyalties aside though...

3) I swear, it's not even past my birthday, and we're talking about Christmas. Count that under my top 30 annoyances. October is the month of St Therese, Halloween, and my birthday :)...I love Jesus and everything, but the Nativity is not until Dec 25th...patience people.

7/2) I do ask for your prayers. I'm in a state of confusion about a situation I've managed to find myself in....There will be  no details given on this matter....

30 September 2012

St Therese, coffee, and what in the world.

As many of you know, St Therese is my personal patroness who has lead to my reversion in the Faith. Although I still have a long long way to go to catch up in holiness, it's always good to try. I'd like to take a deeper look at the following quote

"I understood that to become a saint one had to suffer much, seek out always the most perfect thing to do, and forget self. I understood, too, that there are many degrees of perfection and each soul was free to respond to the advances of the Our Lord, to do little or much for Him, in a word, to choose among the sacrifices He was asking. Then, as in the days of my childhood, I cried out: 'My God I choose all!' I do not want to be a saint by halves. I'm not afraid to suffer for You. I fear only one thing: to keep my own will; so take it, for I choose all that You will!"

St Therese here is talking about suffering, and I figured today is a good of day as any to look at that. To say that our lives are supposed to be easy, that has to be the biggest joke ever. All we need to do is look at the life of Christ to understand this....The way of the Cross is by far the most brutal that any person has ever undergone...

My own suffering is nothing in comparison to the Cross, really it's nothing. All the suffering that I undergo is purification, on the road to perfection. And since I suffer a ton, I must be really imperfect, or God wants to do something great with me....(I guess being a mathematician and physicist isn't enough)...

As I say often enough, if you're going to do something, do it well, do it fully, and do so to the best of your ability. I do not believe in half efforts, or half being something. There are many things which I struggle to deal with, but it'sn not about giving up and resigning. 

Suffering for Christ is better than drowning in misery and pointless work....St Therese and I have many things in common, probably the biggest one was that we have our moments of "you didn't just say that." or as some say, very good one liners. If I ever let students record me in lecture, I'm sure you'll get to hear some of the things I have to say. (My self recorded lectures are quite different in tone). She of course was also a perfectionist, just like yours truly....

Suffering is not pointless, we must unite it to Christ's Cross and use the merits of the Cross for the salvation of our souls, and indeed for the hope of the salvation of all.

In today's Gospel reading in the OF we hear the following: 

At that time, John said to Jesus,
"Teacher, we saw someone driving out demons in your name,
and we tried to prevent him because he does not follow us."
Jesus replied, "Do not prevent him.
There is no one who performs a mighty deed in my name
who can at the same time speak ill of me.
For whoever is not against us is for us.
Anyone who gives you a cup of water to drink
because you belong to Christ, 
amen, I say to you, will surely not lose his reward.

"Whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin,
it would be better for him if a great millstone
were put around his neck
and he were thrown into the sea.
If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off.
It is better for you to enter into life maimed
than with two hands to go into Gehenna,
into the unquenchable fire.
And if your foot causes you to sin, cut if off.
It is better for you to enter into life crippled
than with two feet to be thrown into Gehenna.
And if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out.
Better for you to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye
than with two eyes to be thrown into Gehenna,
where 'their worm does not die, and the fire is not quenched.'"

Suffering is a means of purification. This of course may take many forms. Good thing that we don't take the Bible literally, otherwise we'd have 100% of the population without hands, feet, or even eyes. The point of this passage obviously, is to say, if something that you're doing is NOT leading you to heaven, and to the Cross, you should change that behaviour or attitude. I know that I have many things to change about myself....(some of them I have no control over)...but those that I do have control over, are in the constant need of reformation. Living the life of the Cross is a daily life style, one that I'm sure all of us need a bit of help in living....

b. Coffee

Is apparently what I got myself into this evening. I hope that it goes well. I try to not make myself a nervous wreck, seems to manage to happen though. Good thing chocolate is a great bribery tool :p....

I wish all of you the most blessed solemnity of St Therese :)....and welcome to my favorite month of the year....(Ugh, and 15 days until my 27th birthday)

27 September 2012


I find that I like to keep my own sufferings to myself (well, the details of the suffering anyway). I would rather people not know about what they do to me (particularly when they know that they have some degree involved)....But I think today is a good day to write about this...

Last week in the OF form of the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, we prayed the following.

O God, who founded all the commands of your sacred Law upon love of you and of our
neighbor, grant that, by keeping your precepts, we may merit to attain eternal life.

I have been doing much praying on these words the past few days, and have finally decided to write somethings that have been on my mind for years in some respects. 

a. The love of neighbour...in spite of what they've done

With my personality type, I'm very particular about particular things. Yes, things must be a particular way, whether it's friendships, my students' work, or whatever. There must be order to these things, and when there isn't order, or the order that does exist is upset, for me, I've always gone crazy. 

So thus, when intruders, A, B, C  entered the picture between friends A, B, and C, to say I was upset, is a lie. I WAS ABSOLUTELY INFURIATED! (And to whatever degree STILL AM). It's not even the fact that intruders A, B and Centered the picture....it's 3 things: 1. the fact that I didn't find out until after the fact. (even if they knew how I would react) 2. at least with B that person knew of the cross that would be added to my already difficult cross...I don't think A had a clue...3. A and B and C while B and C are likable, A isn't...and I absolutely detest to anyone treating A, B and C in such a manner that will result in my infuriation. Yes, I'm a bit overprotective of those I care about. (I swear it's a good thing I don't have a younger sister....poor girl would have never had a b/f or been able to talk to anyone)...

A and B have been more vocal about this than C, but A and B have explicitly asked for me to be happy for them, and I've repeatedly kept quiet, or said in some way shape or form, it'd take a long time for me to be "happy" for them. I find it hard to rejoice when one's heart is being stomped upon....(For yes A, B and C do have special places in my heart and in that sense it totally is)....Perhaps I should be warm and welcoming to change, but I hate change as a general principle...And yes, my closeness to A, B and C has been directly affected by intruders A, B and C...but I need to let go...

At the end of the day, they're still my best friends, and I will love them unconditionally, as I would expect them to love me. No, I will not approve of everything that they do, and no, I will not be absolutely elated for everything (as it's hard to get me excited about many things)....

But I do say this, while I don't have control over my personality type, I do have control over my will, and on this day, I choose to forgive, and I do promise to pray for God's will to be done...It is the least I can do for the ones I hold closest to my heart. 

25 September 2012

7/2 Timeout Tuesday...The wait is over edition...

AOA as usual is our gracious host:

1) As many of you know, I'm a huge fan of Jordan Pruitt. I make no secret about my some would call it obsession on this blog about her. I've talked about her and promoted her music....Well, after 2 weeks of torture thank you to the execs at NBC, her audition was FINALLY shown last night. (I rushed home after work to watch NBC (must say something, I can't stand NBC otherwise))...She did not fail to impress me once again....and Christina Aguilera (another one of my favourite singers)....If I haven't bragged about her enough...here's her audition. So good, I had to give you 2 videos. I hope she wins.

2) As I was talking to my friend Emmy on Twitter last night, about 1. Something else was happening, the replacement refs were trending on twitter. For those of you that missed the blatantly obvious interception against the Seattle Seachickens...here ya go...These replacement refs have gotta go, but I must admit, it's pure comedy watching these guys, even if they suck at their job

3) One thing to really look forward to at the end of the week is 1st payday....it's been a long time coming...yay, money....

7/2)  Because I think more Jordan Pruitt is a good thing....

23 September 2012

Thought of the day

Forgiveness is an act of the will...It's a whole lot easier, when the person you seek to forgive comes seeking that forgiveness, than them not seeking it, and not having closure to this particular act.

21 September 2012

Orange has a new Bishop...

I hope that he's Liturgically sound, God knows they need just as much help as LA...prayers for Bp Vann, he's going to need to clean house. Two of the most liberal Bishops in the country were sacked today...coincidence, I think not....:)...I'd also like to wish Bp Clark of Rochester a glorious retirement. May the Holy Spirit bring both Brown and Clark back to Holy Mother Church theologically and Liturgically.

Thought of the day

Words can't always express what I think....or what I don't think for that matter

20 September 2012

Thought of the day

I'm going to try and write 10 000 words for my book today. I highly doubt that I'm going to be successful, but I'm going to try, what can I say...

18 September 2012

7/2 Timeout tuesday...the Idaho has crime/walk on the beach version.

AOA of course is our gracious host.....

1) One of the shows that occasionally comes on the tv is America's dumbest criminals. There was someone that came to campus to try and rob one of those little portable atm machines that exist in some places on campus. On the scale of stupidity, this ranks high up. Those things are built with safe, and an ink pad, which would render any money that one could take from there worthless....(As if the money that we own is actually worth anything)...I should have taken picture of the crime scene, but I didn't...maybe I'll update this tomorrow....UPDATE: Here's a picture of the "crime scene"

2) A different person with mental issues apparently tried to threaten the financial aid office (about 3 doors down from where I work) with a columbine type of situation. Good thing he was arrested. But I'd argue that's another stupid idea. This is Idaho, a pretty conservative state...we be packing....

3) In the spirit of the above 2 situations. I walked my friend to her dad a few blocks away because I didn't want her walking alone. Overprotective of my friends, probably so....Twas a nice walk on the beach....Seeing puppies, we both said, awww, how cute at the same time...now I'm in debt a soda...I'll buy it for her tomorrow...

7/2) I had something constructive to say, but I lost it...God bless and have a good week.

Thought of the day

Coffee is a good thing....

15 September 2012

Thought of the day

You know Allah apparently doesn't like movies, bacon, reason, but likes pedophiles, and violence, this Allah character sounds like a jerk.

11 September 2012

Good intentions, bad ideas.

The health(insurance)care reform law better known as Obama tax, has a few good ideas, but as with any thing that has a good intention, there's a problem involved.

a. Covering people with pre-existing conditions without penalty....

The definition of insurance is a risk pool that isn't supposed to be used. Those that have pre-existing conditions will obviously cost more to cover. That increase in cost has to be covered in a way. Since according to Obamatax it'd be illegal for an insurance company to increase your cost because of pre-existing conditions...That cost mean a loss of jobs for the insurance company or it will mean an increase in someone else's rates. The point being any stress that is created on a system must be relieved in some manner....without a means to relieve that stress, absolute destruction is going to happen....which is kind of the point of obamatax to get rid of insurance companies and to go to a government ran health care system...

b. Covering people until they're 26

Well, I'm almost 27 ;)....but on a slightly more serious note...this situation creates a situation of dependency, and also helps to reduce the dignity of the human person. The legalized age of an adult is 18....more thoughts on this later....

7/2 Timeout Tuesday....The intended to be that didn't quite end up so random version

h/t to AOA our gracious host

1) I'm deeply upset at myself for missing the live broadcast of Jordan Pruitt last night on the Voice (the only show on NBC that's actually worth watching outside of football). Did anybody get a chance to hear her? As some of y'all know I'm a HUGE fan of hers and certainly don't fail to not promote her here at my blog....which if you haven't heard this song...you probably should....and while I'm on the topic...I hope she was chosen by another one of my favorite singers Christina Aguilera, it would just be epic beyond epic...

2) I would be absolutely insensitive if I didn't mention anything about 9/11. Today would have been my grandmother's birthday...she was very good at hiding her age, as she didn't want anyone to know. I miss her dearly. May perpetual light upon her, and may the souls of all the faithfully departed rest in peace. I was in high school back when 9/11 happened, and was very appreciative of my math teacher who actually had us do work instead of watching tv. We remember all of the fallen and may perpetual light shine upon them. We beg for God's mercy on our nation, and to convert the terrorists to the light of Christ and Holy Mother Church. Any religion that actively promotes violence in the name of God, and needs you to have forced conversions, is not a true religion, period.

3) It's football season. Which means Go Panthers :D...though we lost, there's still plenty of time in the season to get to a good record. I must say Peyton Manning looked very good on Sunday against Pittsburgh, once John Fox let the chains loose and let Peyton be Peyton. I must say, I want to see a Panthers vs. Broncos superbowl this year. Here's hoping.

7/2) I was totally going to make something un-related to Jordan Pruitt here, but quite frankly, we all know I wasn't going to do that...so thus here's another song to hear her voice :)

Offensive is an understatement...

This is absolutely pathetic...Racism in pb&j sandwiches...seriously....what is with people?

I've made mention of my thoughts on these things before, but I think it's important to mention them again.

Why is it that people try to read race into every single thing possible? Is it possible for humans to be so ignorant, or so stupid such that, it absolutely must be a racist crime every single time someone opens their mouth? The perpetuators of this attitude are probably perpetuating their own view onto the world. It is absolutely pathetic...

a. Believe it or not, people actually have objective reasoning for disagreeing with people. It is not based upon race, it is simply a person can disagree with a philosophy, idea, or what not, and still have no malice towards a particular person.

The leftist crowd is very good at chanting racist for every time someone disagrees with Obama. I guess I must be a racist against my own race if that's the case. It can't possibly be the fact that I disagree with marxist philosophy, keyensian economics, the idea that the government needs to be your parent from cradle to grave, socialized health care, gay marriage, illegal immigration, or anything else. No, no, it's clearly that I'm a racist and absolutely believe in the supremacy of my own race, yes, that's it.

For goodness, sake, it's hard to believe, but there are people with different world views such that everything isn't race. Some people say about me that I don't notice my own skin color. I say, yes, as it should be, we're all made in the image and likeness of God, that is enough! I view people as people as should everyone else. I'm friends with everyone, regardless of skin color, political affiliation, sexual orientation, major in school. None of those things matter to me. No, I don't agree with everyone's opinions, but also no, I don't presume something exists when it doesn't.

This is not to say racism does not exist. That would be naive and foolish to think. But on the grand scale that many perceive it to be, I would passionately disagree. For the vast majority of the population, disagreements are based upon objective criticism, or faulty logic. And to assume otherwise is flat out wrong.

If people get offended by a pb&j sandwich, one should probably question what goes on in their minds? If anything, it is more offensive to me to pander to things one thinks that I may like.....than to exclude something.

There's a reason why I'm offended when people say I must like rap music because I'm black, that I must have voted for Obama, that I must like to speak improperly, or must be apart of a gang. All those things are stereotypes and things that do not define or even describe me. THAT is indeed offensive, and should be to anyone when something does not describe them.

The accusations of racism are down right offensive to people who work hard to try to rid the world of such stereotypes....

To all of the left wing media....STOP WITH THE RACE CARD!

The collective whole is what ticks me off.....

Found this over at redneck reflections...I share the post in its entirety

OK--I've been consumed by doubt and sort of malaise of the will, concerning this blog, and concerning what is going on with the Church in the US.  I've made no bones about my dissatisfaction with American Catholicism.

Let me make something crystal clear to everyone who reads this:  Left to my own devices, I would bail on the Catholic Church in the United States in a heart beat, and go to the Orthodox.  Fortunately for my soul, I am not left to my own devices, having a Merciful Savior who left us the Comforter of the Holy Spirit who reminds me that there is no other Church, founded by Christ and adhereing to the teachings of the Apostles.  Literally, there is no where else to go.  It's this Church, riven as it is by latent schism, heresy and confusion, and it's worship marred by those who disbelieve the mysteries of the Eucharist and the other Sacraments, or no real Church.  Knowing, as I do, that Petrine Ministry is true, valid and necessary, leaving this Church would endanger my soul in ways that those who have never been in communion with the Bishop of Rome do not risk when they convert to, or maintain a lifetime adherence to, the Orthodox Church.  I'm staying.

But I will NOT shut up.

I hope somewhere, somehow a Bishop reads this.  Because it's about the Bishops I'm primarily writing.  I've written before   about the USCCB, and I will write again.  They are the problem with the Church in the United States.  These men have very little moral courage as a body.  There are excellent men among them, but most I think are paralyzed  by moral cowardice.   Some are absolutely destructive, like Cardinal Wuerl of Washington DC, who would rather deprive a parish of a priest than face down the power of Sodomites, Saphists and their little buddies in a Parish Clique.   We have men like Blase J Cupich who wear the purple, yet epitomize the cowardice and malaise of our Bishops, men who will say the right thing in public, then undermine it in private, requiring a certain secretiveness of their priests while undermine effective evangelization.  You have men like Richard Gettlefinger who seize on any excuse to place their personal politics over the effective teaching of the Faith, and the protection of the Sanctity of life.  Of course, we can also point to such evil buggers--yes, I used the word 'bugger" on purpose--as retired Bishop Richard Skilba a protege of  Rembert "Let-me-Use-the-Faithfuls-Donations-to-Pay-Off-My-Catamite" Weakland , who covered up for gay and predatory clergymen.

Yes, I've written about these things before, and I WILL NOT SHUT UP!

The word "episcopal" stems ultimately from a Greek word meaning "overseer".  Well, they do a piss poor job of that. The CCHD is infamous for it's support of organizations that actively oppose the Church at astreet level, and we've heard that the Bishops are trying to reform it.  But we can see how that goes, and every year we read about some groups that promote sodomy, murder, contraception and a twisted version of feminism that extols lesbianism still get grants.  For that matter, the bishops still fail to address one of the root causes and key statistics in the sexual abuse scandal, and indeed have commissioned studies to muddy the waters and cover it up, because they are afraid of the "Gay Lobby" and perhaps fear the exposure of their own peccadilloes. 

The US Bishops own outreach programs are tainted with evils.  Among the evils they are tainted with is the evil of the lie, especially in the case of Catholic Relief Services (CRS).  CRS has stated it will revise a document in response to concerns generated by a news service reporting on their promotion of contraception.  Big deal--they had to get caught to do the right thing.  And the odds favor them not firing the persons responsible for publishing this document--not when they hire pro-abortion, pro contraception people who actively hate the teachings of our Faith.  How effective can the Bishops oversight be when CRS hires people like  Dr. Sok Pu, Dr. Amy Ellis and Daphyne Williams?  Remember Charisse Glassman , who attempted vehicular homicide against pro-life people but wasn't immediately fired, or even suspended by CRS? CRS continues to attempt to justify and defend itself, when it's actions are indefensable.  Yet the Bishops are very nonchalant about this.  Where is the reaction?  Where is the movement towards reform?  By the actions of their own outreach program, our efforts to defend our Religious Liberties are endangered--all it would take is some smart lawyer to point out what the Bishops themselves are allowing and paying for with our contributions to undermine our resistance to the HHS Mandate.  

Collectively, the Bishops mouths are full of proper words, but their hands are empty of courageous deeds.

For that matter, our Bishops haven't the courage shown by the American Heritage Girl I saw tell her mother that something would be wrong,even when dealing with groups they say are beyond the pale.   They lack the moral courage of a 10 year old girl.  Take Catholic For a Free Choice , a group the USCCB has said are a non-catholic entity, which is currently speaking out against religious freedom for Catholics.  Have they said that Catholics involved with this group should not present themselves for communion?  No.  Do try to remember that the head of the Roman Rota, the highest ecclesiastical court in the Church, has said that this is not a canonical penalty, it's a pastoral measure.  They should, in fact they should go so far as to  loudly and publicly denounce this group, not in the muted voice they have used--and send letters, registered letters, to every Catholic involved telling them not to present themselves for communion.  I will go so far as to say that if they tried for 10 minutes they could get CFFC's mailing lists and donor lists to verify this.  I don't care if there would be outrage--no matter what we do as a Church there will be outrage. Then, when they don't comply, point out that Schism is defined as obstinate disobedience, and excommunicate them for Schism.

Pastor is another word for shepherd, and shepherds must drive off the predators and wolves that prey upon the sheep.  It takes courage...balls...to be shepherd.

Then there are things like that false and deceitful "religious sister", Simone Campbell who spoke at the Democratic Convention, and who said she didn't know if Abortion should be illegal, or if abortionists should be subject to legal penalties.  So, she doesn't know if a violation of the Fifth Commandment should be illegal, and those who engage in the serial murder of unborn humans should be subject to legal penalties?  What have the bishops said about this?  Has even one of them contacted her superior?  Has even one of them imposed any type of discipline?  This woman has to live somewhere--has her local ordinary told her not to receive communion until she repents?

The US Bishops are my Brothers in Christ.  This is undeniable.  But although I respect their Office, and I respect their Sacramental Status as Successors to the Apostles and as men who hold the "Fullness of Christ's
Priesthood", I have a real problem respecting them as individual persons.  Soldiers of Christ?  If soldiers in leadership positions displayed this lack of moral courage, they would be relived, probably demoted, and quite possibly removed from the service.  Remember, the Bishops of England, in conformity with the spirit of their age and to adhere to the political fashion of the day decided, all but one, to enter into schism and heresy.  The one, St. John Fisher lost his head.  If the Bishops had kept theirs, he would have kept his, and England would have been preserved from government  enforced schism and heresy.  Ther is a lesson there for today.

More than that, because of the tolerance for our bishops for heresy, error, and latent schism, people are going to go to hell.  Our bishops need to remember that they too are subject to the The Last Four Things, and if they allow, through inaction, the body of the faithful to be mislead and to fall into error, they will be judged for that, and held accountable.  By their ineffectual verbal games, by their moral cowardice, by their pusillanimous refusal to deal with moral corruption among the clergy, and to require vigorous and effective preaching on morals and the Teachings of the Church to the faithful, they not only endanger our Liberties, and our Salvation, but their own.  Chrysostom was not speaking in vain when he said that the road to hell was paved with the bones of priests, with the bodies of Bishops as the signposts. The US Bishops have become so lax, so ineffectual, so politically minded and so accommodating of sin and error that I believe their own Salvation is at risk, that they are in danger of a an eternity in hell.


07 September 2012

My friends have good thoughts too

Julie over at her blog the folly and the glory has this to say....

I'm going to talk about something now that is going to be REALLY unpopular, but you know what? I don't care. I've been silent on this long enough and the media hype on this has confused me for a very long time.

Here's the thing:  currently it's very popular to be "Anti-bullying" and of course, as I was bullied as a child, all the way through school, I firmly agree with developing a peer culture that recognizes and turns the tables on bullies. And because I believe that, I also believe that marrying (no pun intended) the whole "gay" thing to bullying does a great disservice to kids who are ACTUALLY bullied and not just using that media-driven popular political  platform as an excuse for what truly is a mental and emotional disorder. 

There. I said it.  Yes I did. I went there. Shut up. It's my turn to speak. 

So hear me out, because I'm not NEARLY done.

When I was growing up, I was the bullied kid, even from kindergarten. Mostly because I was shy (and that is still very much a part of my temperament/ personality) in social situations. God help me, I was born an introvert and no one ever understood me, especially my peers. As a result, I was often bullied and no, I didn't fight back. Why? Because I hadn't the strength, hadn't the will to engage the bully, and figured that if I just put my head down and kept going, maybe the rocks being flung at me would finally stop. (And this isn't a metaphor: rocks really were involved in more than a few bus-stop incidents, and they were quite literally aimed directly at my head.) 

I wasn't bullied because I was "gay".  For the love Our Lord and His Mother, I was 6! And in our culture, we have pre-adolescent kids "coming out" as "gay" when they don't even know what sex is about! Is anyone else smelling the bullshit? Seriously? Has the entire country gone MAD????

Now, fast-forward to my Jr. High years, where a new girl and I struck up a friendship. I didn't have a lot of friends due to my own social awkwardness, although I was pretty well adjusted even considering that. I had friends, a social life and was fine around them but seemed to "lose my voice" around the popular kids. Everyone knows that Jr. High is brutal, worse than any boot camp the military of any nation ever created, falling just short of the type of treatment Hitler provided as "hospitality" to concentration camp prisoners during the Holocaust that bastard masterminded and orchestrated.

[I'm pretty sure that Middle School/ Jr. High culture is pattered after the philosophy of  Mein Kampf, but that's neither here nor there for the purposes of this blog.} 

In my 7th or 8th grade year, a particular girl in my class who had always had a mean streak, and with whom I'd been friendly previously, suddenly decided, apparently, that I must be eliminated. She had a super-group of friends my older, High-School cousin dubbed "The Mob".  This particular girl did everything she could to make my life miserable, and I did everything I could to avoid her. One day I got caught in traffic in a hallway between classes and she and her friends cornered me. I had no hands with which to defend myself as she approached, a stolen paint brush from the art room in hand. She had emerged from the bathroom, making a beeline for me as her Guidos giggled and blocked any possible path for escape. Wordlessly, this girl drew  the soaked paintbrush against each of my cheeks, grinning madly, staring into my eyes. I looked back mildly; I was already broken and just glad they were only dragging this piss-soaked brush against my face as opposed to trying to drown me in a backed-up toilet. 

As I didn't react, the Godmother, her Consigliere and their minions disbursed just as the hall traffic finally burst in the way it tends to do 30 seconds before class begins. 

My tears helped to wash away the unspeakable fluid from my face. And WHY were they all doing this? 

Because, they said that I was "leszing" with my new friend. I honestly didn't even know what that meant. Over time and context, that year, I finally figured out they were accusing me and my friend, who was also being bullied, of being "gay". 

They knew we WEREN'T, but it was a point of attack and they thought it was fun. Some people do tend to spend their Middle School years as a hobby, making life miserable for people they consider "less than" themselves. They don't care about WHAT subject matter they use to "bully"; they just pick something and run with it because to them, it's FUN!

Getting back to the point, because there is one:

I just don't buy the "all gays are being bullied" crap that's being pushed upon us. 

The media and many misled people are perpetuating the myth of "bullied gays" using homosexual identity as a platform to condemn bullying, and this is key; it is as if ONLY alleged "gays" are being bullied! 

I have a serious problem with this. Yes, after all I've revealed here, I have a major problem with this platform because it denies the reality of the average bulled person...who is NOT gay, even if they are being bullied using "gayness" as a "trigger" for it on the part of the bashers from Hell. 

In fact, in my Jr. High/ High school, I have learned that the vast majority of the "popular kids" in those years are actually, THEMSELVES....now active homosexuals. 

Yes, really. You can't just make this stuff up. 

And many of those popular but apparently homosexual bullies were actually the biggest jerkwads in the school. They were NEVER persecuted to the degree I was; in fact, they were ADORED. Many were JOCKS, even!  REALLY! 

Now, I'm not advocating the idea that every professed gay was Homecoming Queen in his school or Homecoming Queen in hers.  In fact, I have also reconnected with other friends from that time who were bullied as much as I was, or even more, and they ARE gay, but among all of us, I was the only one accused of that particular "crime" at that time, and I do not have same sex attraction. Friends, you're welcome. I took that bullet for you. (And in looking back, am glad I did. You had enough on your plate and didn't need what I suffered for your sexual identity issues as you also had way too much to deal with back then. Am glad I ran interference for you and if I could go back in time, even knowing what I know, I'd do the same thing. I'd just be more vocal about the bullies and would probably be dead now.)  

Oh, sure, this is MN and when we first moved here, I learned the term "Queer" or the phrase "That's GAY!" and had no idea what it meant. I also learned that the terms were learned from the culture, not from true maliciousness, and so it makes sense to me that now, in this ultra-liberal state that any "slander" against those who actually ARE "queer" or 'gay" are punishable by death or will be shortly. Why? Because the biggest bullies are now the lawmakers who will silence all in order to squash their own transgressions against the new religion, defined and invented by themselves: The Church of Tolerance. 

This is the reason for the "bullying" legislation and "hate crime" crap that excludes the ability of Catholics, Christians, and other general normal people  to oppose abortion and the re-definition of marriage here. 

The Adult Years and Friends

As an adult, I once had a roommate quite submersed in the "gay culture" as most of her friends, both men and women, were same-sex attracted, even though she herself was a heterosexual. I loved her friends and we all would go out to dinner, for drinks, dancing...whatever. One day she hosted a birthday party for one who was turning 30, so she and I were the only two women (and heterosexuals) in the house. I fully admit that I had a blast! 

I LOVED these guys! They were animated, engaging, fun, respected my own status, and, quite honestly, it was nice to attend a party and not be hit on by losers. (I've always been a loser-magnet. Friends always laughed at the show.)  

But at one point, some weeks later, the friend for whom the party was being thrown heard a particular story of mine in which (regarding a past male-dominated job) I'd been slighted because I was a woman. 

Condescendingly, in a tone to which I'd become accustomed from guys like him, he commented, "Oh, so you've been discriminated against."  He said this with a disdainful sniff, (think Adam Corolla sniff) as though to dismiss my experience because I couldn't POSSIBLY know what it was like for REAL.  (Mind you...this was a popular guy and had always been so with his own peers.)  

I was a bit taken aback by his attitude for I was truly distressed by what had happened to me. I bit back my anger, for I wanted to say, "What, because you're gay you think you have a corner on the discrimination racket?" 

Instead, as usual, I was silent and just walked away.  I'd probably do the same thing now, actually. Pearls before swine. 

Then, come fall, another of my roommate's friends came over so she could help him dress in drag for Halloween. Terry wasn't a fan of drag and was amazed at himself for doing it, but was going along with some crazy friends (his words) and so my roomie was going to help him with makeup and fitting. I made a few suggestions of my own to him and gave a few makeup tips (like putting loose powder under the eyes so that the eyeliner won't run).  

While we were doing Terry's makeup, he spoke about how much he hated that people didn't agree with him and that his recipe for "happiness" was to just cut anyone out of his life who didn't 100% agree with his actions. 

I recall being shocked at the time, but have found this to be the attitude of many active  homosexual friends (male and female), throughout the years. It saddened me, and still does. I find that this attitude permeates and spreads to others, and the IDEA of that, the IMPLICATIONS of that philosophy are never truly explored. 

To be honest, I lost  nearly all respect for Terry on that day, and I also have respect for anyone else who holds such a terrible, unforgiving, intolerant philosophy. They are not open to anyone; they are not open to new ideas, they are not open to anyone but their own self-defined bubble of "happiness", and as a result, become the most miserable people on earth.  

To this date, most of the self-described active gays I've met are wildly popular and wildly supported by their peers, from Elementary school on up to ripe old death, for those who don't die of HIV, addictions, suicide relating to some mental illness such as bipolar, chronic depression, cancer caused by HPV....all the stuff that also kills promiscuous heterosexuals and people from all walks of life, in fact. And bullying of "gays" is NOT the cause of the majority of it. 

Any time we act in a way contrary to Natural Law, we are miserable and wallow in it until we finally cooperate with those laws. Advice from a sinner. ;-) 

Summary and Conclusion

So it is that I don't buy the package being sold out there to teens and gullible adults: that the reason for the high rate of suicide, addictions, and mental illness among persons identifying as homosexual is the result of "not being accepted." In my experience, bullying in schools has absolutely NOTHING to do with gender identity or attraction, but entirely to do with teenage idiots running rampant and you're never going to truly quash that because bullies have always been around  and now some of them just have more to lord over others because their own abnormal condition is being supported as untouchable. Now if a gay tortures a straight kid (as I was), the straight kid is given punishment for being "intolerant".  

Yeah, I have a problem with that; I've been there, and was for many years.  

As for the "bullying" that allegedly causes "suicide, depression, and addiction" among gay adults, well, let's face it: it's not there. Maybe for SOME, but then again, as a Catholic I can't even go onto Facebook without being assaulted by attacks upon my faith and my fellow Pro-Lifers are getting the crap beat out of them,. or killed by people who disagree with them, all  in the name of "Choice.", whether it be the subject of abortion or redefining Marriage.  

I'm done. Bring on the flames. Cool thing is..."delete" really works and I'll NEVER be bullied again. So think before you comment. I did, and decided this hill is worth dying upon as I've already been martyred upon it for years, over and over again. One more time means nothing to me, even if it makes you feel better. 

I must say I 100% agree :D