23 January 2015

Thought of the day

Rabbits are cute, there should be more of them...the world can never have enough rabbits (or kittens for that matter)

22 January 2015

Thought of the day

If the removal of the Pro-Life bill isn't evidence that we as pro-life Catholics/Protestants/Whatever are being used for power, I'm not sure what is.

20 January 2015

Dating, Relationships, Seminary, and things of this nature....

Beware of the quiet ones, not necessarily because they are dangerous, but rather, they're the ones that are probably trying to out think everything.

So it often seems that I get bothered about this topic offline often enough, that I've decided to address it online.

Anyone that I've ever seen as a possible "more than friend" candidate or someone that could potentially lead to something down the road has hurt me. Some have done so more severely than others. I can't think of any exemption to this statement, and I'm not putting specifics in so I don't have to retract this :p.

Success in romance has been relatively minimal with respect to the whole. And unfortunately for me those situations that did happen did not end on good notes. (Me being hurt, not good). Nor is it possible for me to say that I felt called to a higher state during those times. That is to say, I didn't think that God was going to drag me away from the relationships to be a priest.

To say that I'm a broken soul would probably be a huge understatement. I've been through enough, and know myself well enough to know that healing will take time, but forgetting will not happen anytime soon. If we took the sum of every time that I have been broken hearted, let's just say the number is really really high.

Is it all a sign? I'm not so sure. That is to say, in each situation, it wasn't something where both people parted their separate ways due to a mutual agreement. It'd be one thing, if each situation was agreed upon, to point to something higher, but to be nearly "beaten" to the point of despair, I'd rather disagree.

If you've been paying any attention to this excuse of a blog, all of you know of my love of the Liturgical rites of the Church. I was intending to be bi-ritual even if I did get ordained. But at this point, I don't know what I am going to do.

There's some attraction to both vocations, and I can certainly say that one is stronger than the other.

I do know about the situation for seminary, that if it is I who must pay, then I will dictate where I go. Likely, I would send myself to Eastern Europe, Russia, Slovakia, or Belarus for seminary. (And I'd make Bishop say yes)....(Yes, My love for Eastern Europe still is there)

If I do ask for prayers, I really do need them, I'm not just saying it just because....so yes, keep praying for me.

Yes, I am still hurt by those that have hurt me (whether directly or indirectly, intentional or unintentional), no I am not dwelling on them, but I do take things rather personally. Apologies work, but only with appropriate action. I don't think it quite works just simply saying sorry for things and then doing nothing to fix the wrongs.

If things seem rather confusing, that's because well, they are....I'm not revealing anyone that I may (or may not) be interested in, or even which way I may be leaning, but I would like to ask for prayers...

Thanks for putting up with this rant.

Pax Vobis

Thought of the day

If I'm going to be paying for insert thing here, I ought to determine where that thing called money goes.

15 January 2015

Back from retreat...and so I'll try to get some thoughts out.

Fact of the matter is that I haven't been home, and have not had a chance to type out my handwritten notes from the retreat that I went on.

Before I begin though, if you can pray for a priest named Fr. Matthew, I'd (and he'd) appreciate it.

The theme of the retreat was the Family: The Martins, for those of you that know me, know I have a particular affection for St. Therese (and St Tatyana, whose feast day it was yesterday)...

a. There are certain sins that are deep symptoms of loneliness and regret. One should avoid these things, remember that in God is strength, and not other people.

b. It is important to have a disposition of silence so that God can speak. This is the spirituality of Carmel.

c. To conquer the past, one can't do it on their own. Some anger with God is healthy, but can' dwell or be a perpetual pity fest.

More to come....

08 January 2015

Please pray

For myself, and all of us that will be going on the OCDS retreat this weekend.

If you need any intentions prayed for, please mention them, so I can bring them before Our Lord.

The theme of the retreat: The Family, the Martins...(haha Therese, hahahahahahaha, very funny)

03 January 2015

Thought of the day

The idea of multiple fathers can make life a bit confusing for a child. Perhaps it's best to not do that to a child. One mother, one father, good enough.

02 January 2015

Happy Birthday to my dear St Therese

And so today is the nativity of the most important woman in my life, not named the BVM, Mrs. M, my own mother, and my sister...

More later today